Hi Yana,

I was dating a guy for about year when he told me he didn’t want to have sex with me anymore, but wouldn’t give me a concrete answer as to why. A few months later I found out he had read my journal (ugh) where I was comparing sex with him to sex with my previous partners.

Obviously his feelings are hurt and now I don’t know how to talk to him about it because I am just as upset about my invasion of privacy. Do you think it’s worth it to try to explain the things I wrote?

Thanks!

Writer’s ****Block

Dear W*B,

Dang. A year is a pretty substantial amount of time to be dating someone and then just have them drop off the face of planet sex.

I’ve got a lot of questions (as I’m sure you do, too).

One: How long has it been since this happened? If it’s been under six months, it might be fair game to re-engage if that’s what you decide to do. If it’s been more than that, let old wounds heal sans the salt (“Baby, you’re not WORSE at sex than her — you’re just DIFFERENT”). There are just so many potential landmines to accidentally step on in that conversation and it might end up doing more damage than repair.

Two: What are your theoretical goals for re-engaging in this conversation? Do you want to really let him know how pissed you are that he read your journal? (Fair — I’d be really upset, too). Do you want to ask him to take some steps towards reconciliation like apologizing for the violation of privacy? Do you feel guilty for having (clearly unpopular with him) thoughts about your sex life? Do you want to apologize for hurting his feelings?

Three: Was he always untrusting of you? Did he believe that he had reason to snoop in your journal? What was he looking for, do you think? Or was he just snooping because that’s just … what he does? Like oh, it was on the stack of magazines by the toilet so I thought I’d just flip through and see what’s going on in the deep recesses of your mind? I mean, is that someone that you really want to be in a relationship with, or might this be a blessing in a prettttty thinly veiled disguise?

Questions aside, my general thoughts on this is that we’re comparing apples and oranges here. The apple is that you wrote your personal thoughts down in a private place that you thought was protected by the assumed trust and boundaries in your relationship. And he broke that trust and blew through those boundaries (I mean does “Don’t read my journal” really need to be an overtly stated relationship rule?).

No one is entitled to know all of your innermost thoughts and feelings except for you…continue reading…